school starts tomorrow

Staring school tomorrow isn't helping to my free fall into depression. I'm getting worst from day to day, yesterday I had a melt down at the cinema watching 'if i stay' and I had another melt down talking to one of my best friends on Facebook,  because I was telling her how sad I am with my life. Today I had lunch alone, walked alone in the shopping waiting for my friend who was watching 'if i stay' with her boyfriend just to say goodbye to her (she is travelling to madrid tomorrow) saying that I had to give her some papers with information of the city and my recomendations. 

You know what scares me more? Be left alone, forgotten... Everyone is my friend, and I know I really have people who cares about me, but in the end, I am always considered like the one who will be there, I'm taken by granted and it's not good, I don't feel happy with that, because everyone forgets that I might fly way while they are all occupied with somebody else. And you know what? When I take off to fly away I'm not going to fly back... 

Spreading love,

Bá