It's been a year since I started this new roller-coaster! I've been down for a while, I've been up, really happy with my life, and now I'm just between getting down or getting up... (This kind of scares me a bit, because I'm unstable)
I'm re-doing national exams to try to get to medical school, again... But I'm also doing finals at college just to be sure that I can carry on with my life if I don't get in again. (I'm a nursing student right now, but I'm not sure that's what I wanna do with my life)
There was no special boy this year, which for me is quite odd, but I think it is for the best, since I don't have that as a preoccupation too. Non the less, it is still odd to look back and realize that when I always had some boy on my mind to keep me occupied.
I feel more alone than ever, to be honest, because even though I have loads of people, who I care about deeply, surrounding me everywhere I go I feel like I have no one. I'm guessing that is the definition of growing up. I wish it wasn't.
I feel so old for someone who is just 19...
Spreading love,
-Bá (aka Moony)
You stated it effectively.
ReplyDeletethanks ! it was an amazing year, but like i said it had its ups and downs. i'll write one like this in a few days about this year :) feel free to talk, if you need to !
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